who I am

i always wonder how people see me.

i am impatient

i am loud

i am sarcastic

i am lazy

i am selfish

i am human

these are traits that i see i myself

not in anybody else.

to me my friends are patient, they are kind, they are never lazy or selfish

and i wonder how they see me.

but feeling this way may hurt for a little bit

until i remember that there is someone who sees me, the whole me, and still loves me, He still loves me

He loves me when i am impatient

He loves me when i am loud and annoying

He loves me when i am sarcastic and rude

He loves me when i am lazy and get nothing done

He loves me when i am selfish and wish for something different

He loves me even though i am imperfect and human.

It is an amazing feeling to know that Father in Heaven sees all of this and still loves me

He must see something good in me

something i wish i could see all the time.

but for now i will have faith and know I am loved.

He knows i fall short a lot

He knows the morning where i wish i could sleep all day

He knows the days that i spend doing absolutely nothing 

He knows that i am doing my best......

Knowing this makes me want to be better....

Makes me want to be a better friend, wife, mother

Makes me what to be that person He knows i can be..

so i am grateful for these days

Grateful for the reminder that i can be who I want to be

so today i will be better

i will love more

speak kindly

be selfless

try see the good in others

i will remember my blessings, even when they are driving me crazy

i will see me they way i am and love me.

just for today..... 

I write this so those who also feel this way somedays will remember this too,

That our Father in Heaven loves us for who we are.