my calling

as i read over my posts i hope that i inspire other woman to be mothers.

i hope one day i will inspire my daughter to be a mother.

as i write this i am exhausted.

my children were up at 5:45am and there was no way i could fight it today.

i am sitting in a messy house that i just have not cleaned.

i am listening to my children fight and cry.

i hear Jacob asking to play video games for the tenth time this morning...

and today i love it.

today i am grateful that i am a mother.

i am grateful for who i am.

when i am asked what i do i will usually say.."oh i just stay at home"

i say it as though it is nothing important or special.

what i should say is "I get to stay at home and be a mother to my children."

today i am proud to be a mother.

motherhood is not something that you can chose to do one day, then decide you don't want to do it the next.

motherhood is a calling.

i have been giving the calling to nurture and teach my children.

i was given the calling by my Father in Heaven.

sometimes i wonder if He knew what He was doing.

He knows my faults and my weaknesses.

but He still gave those sweet amazing spirits to me.

my children are amazing.

they are sweet, beautiful, smart and loving.

how i came to be their mother is a mystery to me. 

but if He has faith in me, i should too.

i don't always like being a mom.

i don't always like having to care for someone else 24/7.

some days i would love to just think about me and only me for one day.

but i always love my children.

they make me a better person. 

they help me be unselfish.

they teach me to be forgiving.

they love me know matter what i do or how i look.

being a mother does make me a better person.

in this world we need more mothers.

we need people that are less selfish.

we need people who are more forgiving.

we need nurturers.

for me being a mother to my children is the most important thing i will ever do in this life.

i will never be famous or rich.

but i can be me.

there are days when i feel like saying " what was i thinking?"

but i have so many wonderful friends and family that are amazing examples to me of motherhood.

i want to be honest in my feelings about motherhood.....

it is hard.

some days are harder then others.

it isn't always smiles and cute clothes.

there are times i just want to sit and cry.

but i remind myself that it is worth it, 

i say a quick prayer and push on until bedtime.

i hope i inspire others.

i hope i help other know they are not the only ones that feel overwhelmed.

motherhood can get pretty lonely sometimes.

it is a blessing to have woman that understand, feel and know what i am saying.

i am grateful.