it is all or nothing....

today i failed as a mother....

i had my day planned out.
i was going to make breakfast.... cereal in a bowl in front of the TV is what they got.
i was going to clean my house.... yeah that didn't happen.
i was going to finish my laundry.... still sitting in the basket.
i was going to stay off the computer..... sucked me in again.
i was going to be kind.... got mad at Jacob when he was whispering in my ear about something while i was on the computer (feel guilty about that one)
i was going to be patient.... bedtime couldn't come soon enough.

i have gotten into this way of thinking that it is all or nothing.
i am perfect or i fail.
i have to be patient all day or i fail
i have to be kind all day or i fail
that is simply not true.
my Father in Heaven only asks for my best..... and tomorrow is a new day.

here is what i did good today.
i fed them breakfast... Cheerios is a wonderful breakfast! And a banana? These kids are spoiled!
i took my kids to the park..... granted it was freezing and Sam tried to eat cat poop but still, GO ME!
i wrote in my journal.... that is important right?
i told my children i loved them.

for all i do wrong in the day, i do somethings right.
and that is what i chose to remember and i can try again tomorrow.
and it is MONDAY!